So Nolan didn't make the team...as much as I'm happy in a selfish way, I feel so bad for him in the other. And I'm kind of on a secret diet that no one knows about..I don't feel the need to tell anyone because I think my mom would just encourage it lowering my self esteem more. I can't wait to be able to go to the gym again. And Nolan will just get mad but I feel like I am the biggest I have ever been and least attractive. This may have something to do with the lack of attention I'm getting from everyone (this all of a sudden) low self esteem. I'm not really a fan of the protein shakes though. Must take a little bit to get used to, we will just have to see!